Five Ways To Find Inspiration

As someone who loves any kind of creativity, inspiration is often hard for me to find. I tell myself that I’m going to sit down and write on a book or my magazine or some blog posts, but when the time comes and I’m faced with an empty page full of possibilities, all I draw is blanks. That is mostly why I haven’t sent out my magazine yet or finished a book and why I’m always late writing blog posts. But I have come up with a solution today! I’ve decided to compile Five Ways To Find Inspiration when you can’t!

Also, quick shout out to Hope Ann who provides me a lot of my inspiration from her blog and Pinterest boards. You’re awesome! πŸ™‚

So, let’s get started!

Five Ways toFind Inspiration

Tip 1: Hit Pinterest.

Pinterest is a treasure chest of inspiration. Whether you want to decorate your room, bake something new, change up your makeup, find beautiful pictures of dragons, or discover story prompts to get you writing, Pinterest has it all. Have you been scrolling through your home feed and still can’t find anything good and you don’t know what to search? Never fear! That’s what you follow people for! I like to look through the boards of the people I’m following and see what they’ve pinned. Often, that’s all it takes for me to discover a new image that fits one of my books perfectly or something to base a new story off of.


Tip 2: YouTube

YouTube is great because you can literally find anything there. I love watching videos from the YouTuber KickThePj. His videos are really creative and often pretty funny. In fact, he did a video on this same topic which you can find here. Some other of my favorite channels are: Blimey Cow, Say Goodnight Kevin, Katie Gregoire, Studio C, and Collins Key.

(Also, can you tell that I just learned how to insert links? XD)


Tip 3: Listen to (or play) music.

Music is one of my favorite ways to find inspiration because through songs you can imagine emotions and whole stories to go along with it. I find it best to listen to music without words if you want to focus on something else that you’re doing, but sometimes regular music is what you need. I’ve compiled a playlist of music for the specific task of writing while listening to it which you can find (hopefully) here.

Also it’s helpful, if you play an instrument, to just sit down and lose yourself in playing. Sometimes it’s nice for me to zone out for about 30 minutes while playing different songs from memory.


Tip 4: Listen to conversations an people-watch.

By no means am I saying be creepy of make people feel uncomfortable. Please try you’re best to be discrete. The point of listening to conversations is to listen for a line that inspires you. Or maybe by watching how someone interacts with another person will help you write such a scene better. If you carry a notebook (which you should if you call yourself any kind of writer) it’s a fun exercise to pick someone you see and try and describe them in as much detail as you can. How does their voice sound? What do you think their profession is? What are theyΒ  doing and what might that say about their character? Who knows, maybe by listening to people and watching them, you may write the next Lord of the Rings.


Tip 5: Get out of your room.

It’s easy to sit for hours staring at the ceiling, thinking about how bored and uninspired you are. But that isn’t really helpful. Even if it means just wandering around the house for a little while, get up and do something. Walk around the block, ride a bike, take a trip to the library, whatever it takes. If you get up and move it helps generate ideas better and you’ll be able to sit down and work on your project with more clarity when you’re done. Also, I’ve found that it helps me immensely if I relocate to a different spot to be creative. If I’m trying to type on my computer in my room but can’t find the words, I’ll go out to the dining room table. Or the camper table. Changing your scenery is very helpful.


There you go! Five ways to help you get inspired! If you have something that you use to find inspiration, I would love to hear about it! As you know, I can use all the inspiration I can get πŸ™‚


Open Letters

I got inspired to write some open letters the other day so we’re going to see how many people I can offend today πŸ™‚Β  Hope you enjoy (I might have even mentioned you!)


To my neighbors next door:

Why on EARTH do two elderly people need 4 HUGE DOGS?!?!?! They serve no purpose except to make a mess and bark at us. They terrify the larger animals in our pasture by running to the fence and barking. Not only that but they have dug under our fence (many times in a row, may I add!!) and grabbed our chickens, then proceed to drag them to their doom in your yard. And all you have to say about it is,”Yup, dogs will play with birds and sometimes they just play too hard.” Killing things isn’t playing!!! Unless you’re maybe a psychopath (and your dogs might be…)

Also, could you please, for the love of all that is holy upon this earth and the earth to come, PULL YOUR PANTS UP!!!! From our back deck we can see right into your yard and when you’re out working on your dirt patch that you name a “garden” we can all see what you have to offer. And more then once it has made me want to pour mouthwash in my eyes! Now, you may argue that a man can wear his pants however he chooses when he is in his own yard; but to that I reply, “NO! Just no!!” You wear a belt AND suspenders for a reason!! They’re obviously failing at their job and should be replaced!!


To my old co-worker (you’ll know who you are):

Making up lies about people and spreading them behind their back is a great way to get them fired. And you might also see yourself as God’s gift to the planet; and you are definitely the manager’s favorite. But you aren’t a very likeable person and someday I hope someone treats you how you treat others. It might be a nice change for you to see how bad it makes you feel. Since I seriously doubt you will see this, it’s okay for me to post it. πŸ™‚


To the female leader at my last youth group (once again, you’ll probably know who you are if you see this):

You ought to be ashamed of yourself. I know what you’ve said behind some of the youth’s backs and I know what kind of gossip you thrive on. Little do you know that you’ve caused so many issues by sticking your nose into where it doesn’t belong. You are a grown woman, act like it!

Also, when you’re in the position of leadership among young people and you find out that one of them is doing something very wrong or dangerous, it is your obligation and your job to alert their parents. You aren’t a doctor, there isn’t any confidentiality agreement, and you have no right to keep secrets from their parents, regardless of whether they want you to or not. If something had happened to that person and you knew about it, it is the parent’s right to blame you.


To my Bestie πŸ™‚

You’re the highlight in my day when I receive a text from you πŸ™‚ You’re the one who believes in my when I can’t imagine myself doing anything great. When I call you with tears in my voice, you make me laugh at silly stuff without fail. I have tried so many times to tell you exactly how much you mean to me but I can never quite get the words right. So I guess I’ll have to settle with trying daily to be just as good of a friend to you as you are to me πŸ™‚ Though I don’t think I’ll ever accomplish that πŸ™‚


To my hair:

I love having you so long but having to brush you five times a day gets a little old sometimes. Also, it would be great if you could grow a little faster because I would really like you to be down to my feet. Sometime soon if at all possible. And while you’re at it, could you have magical healing properties when I sing? Or maybe not because I sing like a drowning hippo…


To the presidential candidates:



To the town where I live:

A little more rain would be appreciated. And maybe some actual snow in the winter. And some more trees. And taller mountains. Actually could you just be Alaska? That would be great πŸ™‚


To my parents and siblings:

Y’all are awesome πŸ™‚ Like I did with Bestie’s letter, I can’t actually put into words what you all mean to me but I’ll give it a good shot.

Thanks for always being with me. We haven’t had the best experiences in this town but I know that no matter how much other people hate us or how many things they ruin for us, we’ll always be together and I guess when we’re like that, we’re unstoppable. We have bad days together like any other family but unlike most family’s, it doesn’t really matter. Thank you all for never letting me feel alone. I joke and say that I have no friends here but that’s not really true because I live with eight of the best πŸ™‚ If I had my way, I would live with you all forever and nothing would ever make me leave πŸ™‚

Dad, thanks for all you do. You aren’t too pleased with the current circumstances but that’s okay because it’s only temporary. I have so many great memories with you and I will never forget the poems that you had us memorize. You’ve taught me more about God and the Bible than any pastor ever did and I want you to know that I would never be as strong in my faith as I am without you πŸ™‚

Mom, thanks for wanting to be with us all day since we were born. That can’t be easy and probably wasn’t when there were four of us running around like a bunch of cats who had too much catnip. You literally taught me almost everything I know and I would’ve gotten nowhere without you. You’re like my first best friend and you are so smart. If I could have anything I wanted I would get you a farm filled to the brim with alpacas, goats, and chickens. πŸ™‚

Bree, we definitely have a weird relationship. Sometimes we hate each other and sometimes we love each other. You’re always going to be my older sister though and remember, if I don’t like your boyfriend, you can’t marry him πŸ™‚ Remember that your life doesn’t begin when you get married and you aren’t worthless just because you’ve never been asked on a date. Don’t compare yourself to others. There’s something special about you and there’s something that only you can do. You just have to figure out what it is. and It doesn’t matter if you’re 20 or 100, you will do amazing things πŸ™‚

Caleb, you’re my best mate πŸ™‚ The definition for “partners in crime” in the dictionary is a picture of us. I’m pretty sure that I’m one of the only people you come to when you cry and I think I’m the same way. All of our crazy games as kids were the best ones and I remember how I would race you to finish a book series that we both wanted to read. I want you to know, no matter how old you are or who you marry or where you end up in life, I expect us to be in a nursing home talking to each other by yelling through the air vents πŸ™‚

Rachel, you remind me more of myself every day. Warning to you though, attitude towards your parents will get you nowhere and you’ll just regret it. Also, your worth isn’t determined by how many friends you have, or who you date, or what other people think of you. Don’t ever let people make you feel bad about yourself. Don’t compare yourself to them, they’re not you. Find what’s special about you and run with it. πŸ™‚

Liv, Josh, and Matt:

You guys are pretty cool. It’s kind of like getting to see Bree, me, and Caleb when we were little. Keep being awesome πŸ™‚ I don’t really have much else to say except Josh, cover your mouth when you sneeze!! It’s nasty! πŸ˜‰


To everyone who reads this:

Thanks so much!! I really appreciate it when the things I say don’t just fall on dead ears. It’s nice to think that someone out there cares about what you think, how you think, how you feel, and what you care about. So thanks πŸ™‚


Girl on Fire Interview with Isabella Morganthal

Isabella Morganthal is a 19 year old homeschool graduate living in Pennsylvania. She participated in the Bible Bee 5 years in a row and qualified for Nationals 4 times. She is alsoΒ  indie author of two self published books titled:

I Dare You: Finding Your Passion and Lighting Your World

The King’s Princess: A Magazine Compilation

I’ve also had the incredible good fortune of calling her my best friend for four years now and though I know her pretty well, I thought I would take the chance to let you all get to know her too πŸ™‚

Interview with Isabella Morganthal

Β Bethany:

First off, welcome to Girl on Fire, Bella! I’m so excited for my readers to get to know you a little better and I hope that through this I will learn something new about you as well πŸ™‚ To start this off, you grew up in a Christian home with a Christian mom, but when would you consider you fully understood what being a Christ follower meant?


I would say my whole life growing up I saw what being a Christian meant reflected in the life my mom lived. I became a Christian and asked Jesus into my heart when I was five. But for me, I consider the moment that I really started learning what it meant to truly follow Jesus the moment when I was 11 and He called me to follow Him into Africa πŸ™‚ That’s when I truly started learning what it meant to follow Him no matter what.


So, you mention being called to Africa (and though I know what that process was) could you explain it for everyone?


I would love to πŸ™‚ A couple months right before I turned 11, I went to a missions conference at a new church we were attending. The pictures of the poverty that the missionary showed from the country she was ministering to shocked me. I wanted to do something. That night I lay in bed thinking and God spoke to me like I’d never heard Him speak before. He said, “Go and tell them.” He called me to go to a small landlocked country in Central Africa–the beautiful country of Uganda. πŸ™‚ Eight years later, Uganda is the heartbeat of my soul and I love this place with all my heart. πŸ™‚


That’s so awesome and inspiring πŸ™‚ And people say God doesn’t speak to them anymore πŸ™‚ I believe you talked a little about this in your first self-published book I Dare You. How did you go about writing and publishing it? What was your inspiration?


Yes, I did share my story in I Dare You! Writing this book was probably one of the most difficult writing journeys I’ve ever had (and I’ve been writing for ten years)! God asked me what I would want to say to the world if I could on,y ever write one more book, and I Dare You was the result of that. I shared my heart on every page. It took two years to write and edit πŸ™‚ My major inspiration for the book was my desire to inspire and ignite a passion in my generation to do something big with their lives. ToΒ  not waste their lives on meaningless things, but to make them count for Jesus. I was inspired by the lessons God taught me on my journey that I knew he wanted me to share with the world. I self published through a print on demand company of Amazon, CreateSpace. CreateSpace allowed me to submit my book an cover and print it for me in a fast and affordable way! It really was an answer to prayer πŸ™‚


So, now that you’re a published author of two (soon to be three;) books, what would you do differently if you had to do it all over again?


Hmm, that’s a hard one! If I had to do it all over again, I would have published sooner. I found out about CreateSpacce about a year before I actually published through them. I didn’t look into them at first because I let my fear control me. As much as I wanted to be a published author-it was my dream-I was terrified that I wasn’t good enough and that fear caused me to wait longer. So, if I could, I would go back and not let my fear keep me from doing what God has meant for me to do πŸ™‚


That’s so cool. And at least you’re not like me an procrastinate so much that you never get it published at all XD I understand that writing is one of your (many) talents, but another talent you have is dramatized sign language. Where did that come from and how did you start doing your performances?


Oh yes, our signΒ  language! I first saw someone preform a dramatized sign language πŸ™‚ I first saw someone preform a dramatized sign language song at our church in 2011 I think it was. It was captivating the way they used the signs to bring the song to life. I wanted to do that too. My first performance with dramatized sign language and choreography was in 2012 at out church’s Valentines Day banquet. After that my twin sister and I create our own creative arts ministry (called Times Two) that performed different songs (mostly worship songs) in signed English. We’ve had many invitations to perform at churches and events and it’s been amazing to see what God has done πŸ™‚


And recently you won first place in a local talent show, so congratulations! Music seems to be an important part of your life (you play drums and have written a few songs as I understand πŸ™‚ Now, those who don’t know you very well might not know your taste in music and aren’t aware of your favorite band. Would you care to enlighten them? πŸ™‚


Haha, I would love to enlighten them πŸ™‚ My favorite band would be Skillet πŸ™‚ They not only have inspired me musically, but also in my Faith. All of their songs mean something to me and I’ve seen them in concert three times!


And (allow me to point out) it’s a good time to be a Skillet fan with their new album coming out in August πŸ™‚ Just had to throw that out there πŸ™‚ In conclusion of the interview, what is the most important thing you want the readers to take away from this?


The most important thing I want you all to know is that God can use you just the way you are. You can make a difference with your life and do something amazing if you give it to God. Inspire someone else today and see what God does with it. πŸ™‚


Amazing (as usual) Bella πŸ™‚ Thanks so much for your time!

God truly is amazing and it has been such a blessing for me to not only see how He has been working in my life, but to also see Him in Bella’s. I’ve seen her make it to the Semi Finals round of the National Bible Bee, watch her publish two books, I’ve seen her heart grow for Africa, and most importantly for me, I’ve seen how she can inspire people. Because not too long ago I was one of those people who didn’t understand what a follower of Christ does and I was content to sit and watch my life go by like a movie. But God’s gift to me in the form of this girl my age who lived across America changed my life and my outlook. It made me realize that as people, we can’t do everything. We physically can’t. But each one of us can do something. And no matter how small it may seem at the time, with God’s power, it can be something great.

So if you take nothing else away from this experience today, know this. God can (and did) take two young girls, make them best friends, andΒ  will use them to change the world. There’s nothing super special about Bella that makes her better than anyone else. Except that she allows God to work in her life and make a difference. The question I want to leave with you is this: will you do the same?

_Whatever gain I had,I counted as loss for the sake of Christ_ Philippians 3_7

Rainy Day Relaxiations

Those of you who live near me know that today was fairly overcast and rainy. And many of you who know me know that this is my favorite kind of weather. Sunny days are great but for me, nothing beats a cloudy day and a good rain. So here are some things that I would suggest you do to fully appreciate the rain.



First things first, the windows must be opened. What’s the enjoyment in the rain if you can’t hear it? That’s kind of the whole point. The only time this isn’t the first choice is if it’s windy in addition the the rain. That just makes the house cold and it makes reading hard.

Find a quiet place (next to a window, preferably). While you have the windows open it’s best to find a quiet place next to one where you can enjoy the rain. Next, grab a blanket and several pillows and make yourself a nest worthy of an eagle (don’t do that though because eagle nests are a mess). Rather make a nest worthy of…um…a different bird that also makes nests.

Now you’ll need to acquire a mug of the hot beverage of your choice. I’ve never been a coffee drinker, nor am I really into hot chocolate. Tea is where it’s at for me. Green tea, Earl Grey, Chai, just a good cup of tea and I’m happy.

Lastly, you’ll need to find a good book. Now, see that i didn’t say just any book. The art of book choosing for reading with rain is a very delicate process and shouldn’t be taken lightly. You can’t accurately enjoy the classy feeling of your nest next to the window with your tea if you’re reading Percy Jackson (no offense to Percy but not really a classy book). My choices would be something by Tolkien, Lewis, or Austin. Poetry is also acceptable but should fit the theme.

I hope that this offered you some help in choosing what to do when the day turns rainy. Please comment and tell me what your favorite thing to do in the rain is πŸ™‚

Forever Day

Today I’m coming to you with just a short post titled Forever Day.

Now, if you don’t know me you are probably a little confused. Allow me to explain:

Forever Day falls on July 7th each year and is a holiday that only me and my best friend Bella celebrate. It’s the day that, in 2012, Bella replied to a pen-pal add that I had put into a newsletter we both subscribed to. After we had been exchanging letters for quite a while, we became best friends. July 7th is celebrated by us as the “start of our forever” coming from theΒ  saying “best friends forever.” It’s been four years now πŸ™‚

People I tell about this celebration often give me strange looks and ask how on earth I can be friends with someone I’ve never met in person.

It’s actually pretty simple. You don’t have to hang out every weekend to be friends. You don’t have to have sleepovers or go out and do stuff together to be friends. To me, being friends with someone, more specifically being best friends with someone, means not only strengthening each other in everyday life and in hard times but also building each other up in your Faith.

Bella to me is more than a normal friend. She’s the one who showed me that my passion and purpose for my life was abolition. She listens to my every problem n matter how silly it may seem and she’s been with me when I’ve never felt more alone. I hope that I’ve been that great of a friend to her πŸ™‚ She was an answer to prayer and still weekly when we hang up the phone after 3 hours of talking, I thank God because I can’t believe that I ever did something to deserve a friend like her πŸ™‚

So this post isn’t to let you what a great friend I have (though she is the best πŸ™‚ but I hope that reading this you will think of the person who makes you the person you want to be. The person who challenges you to be better then you were yesterday and that person who loves you no matter what. Then thank that person and make sure they know how much they matter to you πŸ™‚

Have a great day everyone!

The Abuse of Freedom

The Abuse of Freedom

This past Monday people all over America celebrated the birth of our free nation. We thought about what it means to live in America and how blessed we are to have the freedom we enjoy and the luxury we live in here. But I believe that as we move on from this holiday, Americans forget once again the blessings of our nation and we begin to abuse the freedoms we enjoy.

One of the most famous lines in the Declaration of Independence is as follows:

“We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain inalienable Rights; that among these are Life, Liberty, and the pursuit of Happiness.”

Now, let’s look at those Rights a little closer.

Life:Β  being that everyone has a right to live. We can live how we want. We can worship how we please and go about our daily lives without fear of not doing it right. We all have the basic right to Life.

Liberty: to do what you want as long as it doesn’t conflict with God. Whether you want to go preach on a street corner, or if you want to stay at home all the time. Or maybe you want to do nothing at all; that’s your Liberty.

And the pursuit of Happiness: what makes you happy, you can go for it. This goes hand-in-hand with Liberty. You have the right to be happy.

That’s the shallow end of it and though there’s nothing really wrong with that, I believe that we should always go a little deeper. Here’s the more Christlike side to these Rights:

Life: we have the right not only to live ourselves, but to grant others life as well. To save men, women, and children from human trafficking, to give unborn children life instead of the alternative that’s less fuss in the long run, to save those who have no other savior. That is the Life we have a right to.

Liberty: to not just do what we want, when we want it, but to live in step with God’s plan for our life. To live beyond the shallowness and repetition of everyday life and make a difference. To give justice to those who have none. That’s a higher Liberty.

And finally, to pursue Happiness: but not just the happiness of ourselves, but to help others pursue happiness as well. If everyone is deserving of happiness, we should help them reach it. True happiness and joy is stepping outside yourself to serve others. Because only then, when we imitate Christ, can we find true Happiness.

So I leave you with a few questions to mull over. Though as I said, there’s nothing inherently wrong with living on the shallow side of Freedom, wouldn’t you want to challenge yourself to be better than the expectation? What good is your Freedom if you do nothing with it? If you only serve yourself, are you really free?


June Highlights and Favorites

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*because I can* XD


June has come to a close so fast and I can barely believe that it’s already time for July! Summer is in full swing, which means lots of hot days and pleasant nights. But as July begins, I would like to look back on some of the fun things I did in June as well as some of my favorites πŸ™‚


June was the month where I sat down and got serious about blogging. With a planner in hand, I planned posts all the way through December to be posted every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.

Also, one day at work I got a brilliant idea for a nonfiction book to be written and (hopefully) published this year or early 2017. But more on that later…

The 3 year anniversary of my emagazine for girls (Every Girl’s Adventure) was also in June and I couldn’t be happier. I love writing and sending out the magazine and I’m so happy that I’ve gone from 6 to 16 readers in the past three years πŸ™‚

I got to watch a for King and Country concert through a live stream the same time my bestie was and we texted back and forth during it. That was one of the best things this month (anyone surprised that it had to do with for King and Country? XD)

I also got to take my dad out for a late Father’s Day lunch at Red Lobster! It was nice that it was just us (which rarely happens) and we had some good conversations. After lunch we went to a movie and sat through 20 minutes of pointless trailers before it started! *said with sarcasm* But the movie was really good so it was worth it πŸ™‚




This month I have found an obsession with the band for King & Country (as you can tell if you’ve been reading my blog for any amount of time) and I’m thoroughly convinced that they’re one of the few bands who cannot write a bad song XD Every song they’ve done up to this point is amazing πŸ™‚ I also understand that you all are probably getting very tired of hearing about how great fK&C is and for that I’m sorry (but not sorry enough to stop XD)

I also call myself a huge Thousand Foot Krutch fan and June saw the release of their new album Exhale! There isn’t a song on that album that I’m not obsessed with XD Especially their song Honest, which is a little softer that what you would expect from a Christian Rock band. But it’s still amazing!

Also, I discovered the band Everfound and I love their music! Their song Take This City is my favorite so far and I hope to find many more πŸ™‚

And (I can’t remember if it was last month or this month) Skillet released two singles for their upcoming album Unleashed!! I am a huge fan of Skillet and their new songs Feel Invincible and Stars were perfection!



*once again, because I can* πŸ™‚



Five People Who Inspire Me


Everyone has someone who they look up to; who inspires them. Here are Five People Who Inspire Me!

Joel and Luke Smallbone.

Yes, I had to start with them because my current obsession will have it no other way XD Joel and Luke are the lead performers for the band for King and Country and they are both such a great inspiration. One of their main messages is that chivalry isn’t dead and that a woman should be treated with respect and honor. That a woman’s worth isn’t cheep. And that is an inspiring message, don’t you think? Their song Priceless drives this point home and is a really uplifting song to listen to. And I firmly believe that they are unable to write a bad song XD

Christina Grimmie:

I only knew of Christina’s existence since last November but I fell in love with her voice when I heard her cover of Titanium. Christina was such an inspiring person. She was a Christian an didn’t shy away from her beliefs. She let people know what she believed in and she still was famous. She started her YouTube channel in 2008 and made it to third place on The Voice. She also released an album and was working on a second one. It’s so amazing to see someone so young (she was 22 when she was killed) do so many great things. I was deeply saddened by her loss and I know so many others were as well. She will be missed.

Isabella Morganthal:

I like to tell people that I didn’t have a best friend for the first 14 years of my life until I met Bella. And its true. Of course, I had those people who I called “friends” but they were really just people I knew who I would hang out with occasionally. But Bella is vastly different. See, out of all the many unique elements of the friendship between Bella and I, our friendship started with a letter. In the summer of 2012 I send in a pen-pal add to a ladies newsletter that Bella and I both subscribed to. She replied and from there we became friends. I don’t know when exactly we became “friends forever” but every July 7th (when Bella wrote her reply letter) we celebrate the “start of our forever.” Yes, kind of a weird thing to do, but I never said that we were normal πŸ™‚

Bella is the most inspirational person I know. Only 19 and she’s already written and published two books (almost done with a third), she’s competed in the Bible Bee 5 times and made it to Nationals her last year in 2015. But the most amazing thing about her is that Bella was called to be an abolitionist when God called her to Uganda at only age 11! It’s because of Bella that I realized that my passion was abolition as well πŸ™‚

I could go on all day about how much I don’t deserve a friend as good as Bella. I could never be as good of a friend as she is. So this is for you Bella. Thanks for being my constant inspiration πŸ™‚

Mom and Dad:

I will admit, I wasn’t the best kid. Especially in my teens (yes, I do realize that I am still technically a teen but I’m talking more like 14 to about 17). I blame a lot of this on the kind of people I was around, and the only people I was ever around since I was homeschooled was the kids at my youth group. For some reason I looked at those kids who had all the friends, who always had people talking to them, who seemed to have more fun then I did, and I thought that my life wasn’t as good as theirs. I thought there was something wrong with me that made people not like me, and I blamed that feeling on my parents. I thought they had done me some kind of injustice by not raising my like what I perceived a “normal” kid was. I was angry all the time and I couldn’t wait to leave when I got old enough. How wrong I was. I never realized that I was blessed to have parents who cared about me enough to put their needs on the back burner to take care of me. That my mom would never be taken seriously because the homeschooled me and my siblings.

My parents taught me so much. Not only just teaching us from books (though that’s where I got my love of reading and classic literature:) but also just talking to us. I remember that from a young age we would often get sidetracked from what we were doing because we got talking about something totally random but very informative. And now we sit down in the evening to pray and end up talking for an hour about theology or another equally interesting subject.

The whole point of that mini rant is that my parents are my greatest inspiration because they never gave up on my, even when I convinced myself that I hated them. They let me make my own mistakes (like insisting on going to youth group even though it tore my down rather then taught me) and they are there when I have some kind of issue I’m working through. So, thanks Mom and Dad for being my highest inspiration πŸ™‚